Re-Motivation: Found

Ive been slack. I admit it.

The past few months have been troublesome diet wise. I can make excuses like what happened with the job, or countless other things. But the truth is, I gave up. It was all me. When I was saying the stress was keeping me out of the gym, I was forgetting that the gym is a reliever of said stress. Ive allowed myself to get into a horrible sleeping schedule again (going to bed at 4am or so and waking up between noon and 1) and ive been just plain lazy. For like the past 5-6 months. And im disgusted by it.

Whats the damage? Well aside from being able to eat only Ramen and cheap fast food (having been on an EXTREMELY low budget) I have at least kept to my no soda or sugars rules. I drink hella water and coffee and unsweet tea w/ Splenda. And having not gone to the gym in like 4-5 months, has been horrible.

I expected to get on the scale and weight like 350 again. I feel like it. But i dont. 321 actually. Which is about 30lbs that ive gained in these months of higher sodium and fat, and no working out.

It could be worse right? WRONG. thats another excuse. Any weight gain is bad.

Can it be fixed? Of course it can! And quickly. Being that it was a lot of sodium in my diet, I beliebe i can shed most, if not all, of it in a months time with strict diet and water again. I think alot of it is water retention. And i can fix this and get back on track.

Ive been telling myself for 2-3 weeks now, that it is time to get back to it, finish the race I started, with all of you as witness. Losing 80lbs in those 6-7 months was no joke. I did it. But what do I have to show for it now? Now where I sit im only 50lbs lighter then when I started. Granted, im still smaller than I was at the beginning, but im bigger then I was earlier this year. And thats unnacceptable.

1) Motivation
2) Education
3) Determination
4) Vissualization
5) TRANSFORMATION.

I cannot forget these things.

Anyways, I have new motivation that I believe will help me, and thats helping someone else! I have been talking to someone today, code named JB, who wants to lose 20 pounds and get kinda ripped. And I told her I can help her with that, and I can. Im educated in it, I know what needs to be done, now I just have to DO IT.

I believe helping her will get me back where I was and then some. I told her we can get most of the 20lbs she wants off, in 1 month, and then within another month have her abs showing and defined. And we can. How much can I lose in that amount of time?

Id say 30-40lbs. I think i can be back at 290 or lower in the 2 months it will take for her abs to show.

So lets do it. By March 1st, I will be at 290 or below. And thats that.

DONE SON.

Now its time to wake up tomorrow and start over.
I think this schedule will work best for me with the new job
9am Wake up/ breakfast essential (meal 1)
930-10am take preworkout
10-1030 go to gym
1130-12( or when im done) leave gym, protein shake (meal 2)
2PM meal 3
4pm meal 4
6pm meal 5
8pm meal 6
peanut butter before bed by midnight-1am

This way i can still do my outlined diet, ill just have to take meals 4,5,6 with me to work.
meal 1 breakfast essentials
meal 2 protein shake
meal 3 half wrap
meal 4 chiken lunch
meal 5 half wrap
meal 6 beef dinner

Sounds like a winner! Lets get this done!

And JB: Im rooting for you! :-)

Yours in the Journey
Freeze

PS I will be establishing my 5 dollars per pound savings account as well. If i didnt outline this before: Basically every pound i put 5 bucks in an account so I have money for a new wardrobe when im done. Im down 50 so i need to get 250 into that account to start it (might take alittle while) then 5 more per pound after that. If i get to my goal weight of 200-220 that will be 750-850 for new clothes :)

Been a WHILE! But its all good

As some of my previous blogs discussed, I had been having alot of stuff going on that was keeping me from staying extra focused. Was unable to buy groceries and some other stuff. But finally I took a deep breath and decided to press back on.

a week ago i got on the scale to see 298.. I had gained 8lbs back in the course of 2 months. I was content that it wasnt a hella lot more than that, but I was still dissatisfied.

So I pushed my self and got back into the gym, and a week later, im back to 290. So i was able to lose all that I had gained, and now its time to press forward.

I didnt hit my 270 by august goal, but realistically I didnt start until Feb/March of this year, so for what I did since then, im pleased.

The goal is 40 more by the end of the year. im at 290, so my hopes are to be at 250 by then end of 2011!

Lets push forward, and continue on the path to a new, better me! And you yourself, readers, who are making changes in their lives. Its ok to fall off the horse, as long as you jump the hell back on and keep pushing!

-Freeze

Why Havent You Updated???

Well, thank you for asking kind followers! I have NOT fallen off of the bandwagon.

However; I have been sick for a few days and was unable to hit the gym. Yesterday I went back to the gym and had trouble doing my post workout cardio, congestion and stuff doesnt help.

Euther way Im back on full force starting today. Going grocery shopping this evening or tomorrow and cooking the meals up with Mandy (the girl whom I am training)

Im not going to lie, out of the 15 days in June so far, I missed 5 of them in the gym, and was strict on my diet 0 of them. (Although I didnt splurge and eat a bunch of trash), so when I got on the scale yesterday I was scared for my life.

And it was 289.3

So While I havent lost alot, I have gained none, and still come down in the 2 weeks since last weigh in. Im not satisfied with these results, and even madder at myself. Being sick was sooo horrible, and I hate that it happened when it did.

2 weeks left in this month. Can I get down to 270? Doubtful, but Im going to try my hardest. I think I will be satisfied if I can get to 280, that will leave 10lbs to lose in July to fulfill my 12 month goal of 100 pounds.

And to those who have asked: Im saving my measuring for the 1st of July. I keep putting it off, but I will for sure get it done then.

Thanks for following, I will go through comments and comment back on blogs and what not soon!

***Edit*** Also I forgot to add that I moved during this time too at the end of last month beggining of this: So thats also been puting a hamper on me ****

-Freeze

Can You Say 1XL? I Know I can!

For the first time since Sophomore Year of highschool, I am wearing a 1x. I cant say that Im sad about it :) Mandy, the girl ive been training is doing well as well, and this friday we are FINALLY going grocery shopping so she can get super strict and do my diet plan completely. Its been awesome seeing her order water instead of soda, or coffee with sweet n low/splenda versus sugar. Or unsweet tea vs sweet tea. Its funny, on one of her profiles, under 6 things she couldnt live without, one of them is definitely 'Sweet Tea".

And here she is, living without it! Its amazing to see what we can live without, when we take a step to get rid of it!

Ive been thinking alot lately, about wether I will ever drink sodas again at all. Like, will I even like them? Obviously they were a huge portion of my weight gain through the years, and I will never want to be big again once Im smaller. But will I ever be able to drink them again? Or Will i want to?

Either way it doesnt really matter, Only got 2-3 weeks left of Circut Training before we switch it up again, Not to sure what we are switching to yet, but im sure it will be uber challenging.

On a side note, yesterday, for the firsty time, I did 60 min straight cardio. This was after Ripping my abs and slaying my chest. I felt good, to say the least.

Whats even cooler is I have always been a very confident person, very self aware, and very outgoing. But it seems that my confidence level is rising even more, or maybe its just becomming more natural confidence, versus forced confidence. Either way, people are taking notice.

Today for example, two girls whom i havent seen in a while walked right past me. I turned and yelled at them, and they turned back and went OMG Freeze.. you look like a different person, ect. I wouldnt go THAT far yet, in saying i look like a different person, but different none the less.

Anyways, continuing to push and push and keep going. 270 is right around the corner, and the lower 200s are around the bend after. So lets keep pushing!

Always Remember

Motivation

Education

Determination

Vissualization

TRANSFORMATION!

-Freeze

June 1st. Weigh in check. Measure, not yet. GOALS!!

Ok so I weighed in at 291.4 this morning. I wanted to be at 290, but then again i had clothes on and had eaten last night pretty late, so i like to think i am in the 290 and some ounces range.

Either way, on May 1st i was 304, now right at 291, so thats 13lbs lost in May, and I wasnt as strict on my diet due to some financial stuff and moving and what nots. But Everything should be back on track diet wise after I hit the grocery store today.

Also been working on that tan, so im pretty excited about that as well. The girl im training is making remarkable progress too! Shes really motivated, and that motivates me more. Now im going for 45 or more minutes in cardio, after abs and after weights. So im pushing harder for sure, and so is she!

Anyways, I think I can reasonably set a goal at 270 for the end of this month, which would mean 21lbs, and a total loss of 100!!! If I can do it by the end of this month I will have done it in 11 months instead of a year! Pretty stoaked to say the least.

At 270 ill be 100 lbs lighter than when i started, so I will be getting my new tattoo as a reward, as well as pushing even further. I plan on losing another 50 or so after that, down to 220 or so. Then I will begin phasing bulk/cutting and get a amature body build going!

Anyways

Until next time,

Freeze

PS( I'll measure later and post results!)

Whats New?

Well training subject "M" has been going really well! Shes sticking to her diet, quit soda, and working out every day! She will slowly start to realize these results, and will surely be happy she stuck with it.

On a side not I went out to the club with the guys Thursday for the first time in some time.. And I have to say it was awesome. People who have known me or know me were coming up making comments ALLL night. It was nice to get that attention for sure!

Here is me at the club the other night. I see this picture and cant believe how big i USED TO BE!!!

Its amazing, and I hope you as a reader are inspired to go forth on your own weight loss journey!

Workout wise, Circut training has been going really well. I just get frustrated when SOOOO many people are in the gym, and they keep jumping onto machines without first checking to see if someone is using them. For example I do 3 different excersises per Circut set... and its happened alot where someone will take one of the machines im using while im in the middle of it. Which wouldnt be a problem, except that with Circut training, you arent supposed to stop... at all.

Anywhoo.. I have to bust my ass hard for the next 7-8 days before weigh in and measure on the 1st. On top of that June 4th, My bestie and I are going to a Boat party on a lake for our friends birthday, so Ima need to get down another 10 lbs or so. Although, with the happy highway ive got going on, i think ill be comfortable without a shirt as it is. Maybe get a small tan going first lol.

Anyways until next time

-Freeze

Happy Highways and No GoodBye Ways!

So this week a new person has asked me to help them get to their weighloss goals! I offered to train her as well. Tonight we set up her diet and we worked out today too. Which is pretty cool. To keep her anonymous I will not post her name or pre pictures that we took, but lets just say I have a good feeling that she is Motivated enough to do this!

Here is a side comparison of the progress of me so far:

And here is a front!

Im finally starting to SEE the changes myself! YAY

Anyways, big week coming up. Trying to get to that 270 ASAP so I can be 100lbs lighter than when I started, and be able to get my Tattoo as a reward! :)

Until next time

Freeze

May Update!

Sorry I didnt update on the 1st or since then, been terribly busy with everything.

So I got on the scale on the 1st and was at 304.4lbs. I only lost 7 lbs last month, But then again, I had 2 weeks of "cheating" in a sense, to where I wasnt very strict :(

This month changes the game again! Im going to begin weighing in on the 1st and 16th of every month from here on out, and measuring on the first.

By the way, my belly button waist measurement was down to 51. So def still seeing some loss physically as well!

Started "circut training" this week, and its a doozy. I do all the same excersises from before, just break it up into 2 groups of 3.

Then I do each one, 20 reps, no break. Then repeat that 3 times, no break.

For example Chest Day My first 3some was Incline Bench, Regular Bench, Decline Bench.

So I did them in that order, with 20lbs dumbells. 20 Reps inclined, switch right to regular, 20 reps, then switched to decline immidiately for 20 reps. Then repeated without a rest. 3 times. 180 reps in the matter of minutes. Then did the same thing with Cables (upper, mid, lower).

So the total workout only lasts 20 minutes. Then you go straight to cardio.

The reason I do this circut training is to build strength and stamina simultaneously. Im aerobic during my weight workout too, which increases my metabolic rate, thus leading to MORE fat loss, while building strength.

And so Shall see how this goes!

34lbs to go until Im at 100 pounds lost in a year. Ive got May, June, July to do it!

Lets get it done!
-Freeze

Oh Snap! The level has been raised!

With the next weigh in coming on Sunday, and me nervous about it, I had to step my game up.

Honestly, like I said in a previous post, I let myself slip more diet wise this month. But im back on top of the game and ready to get more results. Yesterday and Today I pushed myself harder than I have to date, and I know its going to pay off!

The tape measure, mirror, and scale doesnt lie. Even if one isnt as great as the others, a loss is a loss; so here's to a great weigh in and measure this sunday!

Anyways, this past week ive raised weight on everything towards bigger and better reps.

CHest day raised Incline and regular bench to 30lbs Got more that 30 reps each, but dont remember exact number. Cables went up to 15 on high to low, 10 on mid, 5 on low.

Back day, raised lat pull downs to 70lbs, both inner and outer. Also raised seated rows to 70lbs. And went for 45's on the power strength row machine (45 on each side, i was doing like 25)

Today Leg day: After doing about 300 reps in abs, I hit the leg press for 180 50 times, leg curls were at 40 for 50 reps, calves were at 70 lbs, then I hit the Cybex... intense as hell. 35 min of doing mostly 1 min rest/1 min hard on a 20/40 scale. Raised my hard set to 50 a couple times. But It was intense, i sweated through 2 shirts (like, the whole shirts wet) and got light headed and felt like I was going to puke..

What does that mean? That means my level has been raised, and Im working harder. And I will see better results.

I also have 2 full packs of cigerettes left, after they are gone, im quitting. I will need ALL of the support I can get!

Anyways Until next time

-Freeze

Just a side by side for Then and Now

Here is a side by side!

A photo comparison of Holiday Value

This was me Christmas of LAST year (not this past, but the one before.) This is a guy wearing a 54 waist in pants, 4x shirt/sweater, and a neck so big that I had to drive to Burlington Coat Factory to get shirts that I could button up. This guy thought he was happy, but knew he was unhealthy. This guy decided that one day, soon, he would start on a journey to get rid of it all.

That Journey has just begun.

This month hasnt been the best, trust me. Ive definitely struggled, but not soooo much with the excersiing (i havenet missed but maybe 2-3 days all month) but more with the diet. And it is partially to blame on getting to a point earlier in the month where I didnt have the finances to afford to go get groceries, that joined with other things caused me to slip on my diet. Not into full fledged grubbing, but into alternative, not as healthy, means. Needless to say Ive got a week to burn some heavy calories for my May 1st weigh in, but as of 2 days ago I was weighing in at 308. A loss is a loss, and I cant be too upset with that. With the lack of dieting discipline, I was still able to lose 3 lbs and not gain anything, and that in itself is something to be happy about. I have a week.

I want to be UNDER 300 on May 1st. So that I can say I really am lighter than I was in highschool. 1 week. 8 lbs at about 3500 calories per pound. Thats 28000 calories I have to burn. its going to take alot of hard work, motivation, and determination. Tomorrow morning im waking up, hitting walmart, and getting the groceries I need for my plan. And starting tomorrow I am going back onto it full force. Im hoping that since ive strayed the past 2 weeks, that my system will be re-shocked into whats going on, and see the results I want!

Anyways, yesterday my co-worker, workout buddy, and slowly becomming one of my best friends, David, and I decided to go and get Easter picture with the bunny. We have to get them retaken today since the digital disk they gave me was blank... but This is me at 308 lbs, 62 less than the christmas photo above... This is me, a guy who went and bought new pants yesterday for the first time in 2 years, and had to get a size 44 because the 46's were to big. Thats right, 10 pants sizes.

44? I havent worn 44s since High school. My football pants senior year were 52's.... so Im excited to say the least...

I dont know if you can see the difference, I have trouble myself.

But The point is, I am motivated, determined, and I will finish.

The goal has been set, and imagery is in place, the Support is surrounding me.

This isnt over till the fat lady, i mean, freeze, is singing.

And there will never be a Fat Freeze again.

Thats right.... Its NEVER over.

Love life, and until next time

Freeze

May 1st approaches!

And as it does, I feel its time to step it up to a new level of pain. I HATE cardio, but I need MORE! The results I have gotten just arent enough anymore!

Yeh, its great to hear people saying "wow.. you look great"... and I drink it down and love it. However, its only motivation to push harder!

I cant wait to see the expressions on faces when the new me is finally revealed!

Keep up the good work, followers. Those that are wanting to join the journey, DO IT!

-Freeze

I'll start on Monday...

Yea ok, sure you will. The most notorious line in the world of "getting healthy". Someone feels the little jittery feeling of "wow... i can do this.. im motivated. I cant wait to start on Monday." And then monday comes around, then weds, then its 3 months later and you wonder why you are more unhealthy. I myself did this for years. 23 of them in fact. Of always gettin pumped and excited about quitting soda, or eating better, or going to the gym, or what have you. ALWAYS id say "sweet, ill start on monday." And i never did, until this time. And what did it take? To stop being a wuss, for lack of better words. To make a descision. To decide and say yes. To not accept failure, and to do. And as cliche as it sounds... thats the absolute truth. Be motivated, by anything. But be motivated by yourself first. No one is going to change you but you. No one is going to make you better, but you. As our saying goes... To be better, you have to get better, to get better, you have to want to! Until Next time -Freeze

New Post. Key word: Discipline.

Just because I havent blogged doesnt mean I havent been working hard!

A few things this week have thrown me off the blogging course, but not the diet and gym course, so Im all good :)

New Hire along with childish, immature rumor starters had my week a little off, but we're back now and for the record, doing wonderful!

I would like to start by saying the one thing that has probably been the staple in this whol process so far is the Discipline.

My step mother commented on it at dinner the other night. For those of you who dont know, my father, step mom and brother live in the Phillipines. They came into town this past week, and having not seen them in a couple years, I went out to eat dinner with them twice this week. Thats the ONLY cheating I did. and trust me, I felt like poo the day after.

Either way, we were talking, and they were asking me what ive been doing, ect (since they dont read my blog... lame) And I started explaining everything. How I have alarms set on my phone for every meal, ect. And she said "wow.. you are really disciplined."

And I started thinking about what made THIS time different from everyother "attempt" to lose weight before, in my life, was.

And the difference was Discipline. I never before had enough of it to eat properly, at right times, ect. Never had enough of it to be in the gym everyday. Never, ever, was I disciplined ENOUGH.

So, my thoughts on this are, the real secret to success in ANYTHING you want to do (such as quitting smoking, which I am going to do THIS month); then all it takes is a little discipline.

Or alot, in some cases. But the point remains the same.

Today im hitting the gym hard doing arms AND core, and cardio. Going to to bust my ass in punishment for dinner friday night with the family, create a nice Afterburn affect and get it done.

Until next time

-Freeze

Weigh in, Tape day, and well, Im surprised!!

Like ive said in previous Blogs recently, I honestly didnt think I had lost any weight. Having been lifting in a style of mass building the first half of the month, paired with eating wrong (albeit, still "healthier"), I just began adding the intense cardio and eating better that week before my Rush Hour. Actually, only the eating part. It wasnt until the Rush hour not even 2 weeks ago that I started doing cardio better.

And the day I went to do the Rush Hour I weighed in at like 326 on their scale. (326.5 on mine)

Anywhoo.... Lets start with the measurements, now after measuring today, Ive realized that most of them are kind of meaningless, because their areas that dont really show growth or loss (like calves, biceps, thighs) So Im only going to be talking about a few from here on out.

It will be Body area/march 1st measurement/ april 1st (todays) measurement/difference.

Body area March 1st Today(April 1st) Difference

Neck 19.25 18.7 .55 inches

Chest 51.75 50 1.75 inches

Bellybutton 56 52.5! 3.5inches

Waist(pants) 48 47 1 inch

So by measurement, ive definitely seen some changes.

Now weight wise.

March 1st I weighed in at 327.2lbs. The day of my rush hour I was 326. So you can see why I was slightly discouraged, and nervous about the weigh in today... Anyways I was surprised when I saw

Thats right, 311.2! Which is 16lbs down from March 1st, and a total loss of 58.8lbs... not too shabby.

But what Ive realized most, is that I really need to step it up the next few months to get to my goal. Over half way there! (at least, until my 100lbs mark, but after that I willll NOT be done!)

Anyways, tomorrow Im going to have my roommate Matt take pics again, although Idk how different it will look from the last few he took.

And I have now realized that by the end of this month, if I can get under 300, that I will be under 300 for the first time since I was in Highschool in 2005/2006! Rediculous!

Anyways Thanks for staying awesome, and supportive!

Yours

Freeze

Tomorrow, Tomorrow... oh snap!

Well as the title would suggest, im uber pumped about tomorrow. Weighing in the morning, measuring as well.

I just hope the scale shocks me and tells me more than I think (which is about 0lbs lost).

I guess we shall see, yeh?

Anyways today was shoulder. I think the only difference today was my inclined bench. I did 20lbs 3 sets, 30 reps, 40 reps, 30 reps.

Seth happened to join me as I was finishing up seating incline bench, and I got him in on the fun. Of course, hes skinny as hell and is trying to build mass, so he is doing things ALOT differently than I. Nate has already sat down with him and got him on a new diet, so all he has to do is WORK IT OUT!

Anywhoo. Im going to bed soon, ready for tomorrow.

-Freeze

Back Legs and Cardio For the win!

As this month winds down I begin to breathe easier.

Why? Because the habits have been created, the motivation remains, and I still press forward!

My eating is immaculate (except for 1 dinner in a week where i enjoy something other than my normal diet. But do trust, I stick to similar principles when dining out, ask Meredith if you so choose, she was THERE)

My workouts burn more and more.

I Sweat more and more.

Now its time to start seeing some results! I honestly cant wait until Friday morning when I weigh in and measure myself. Although in all honesty, I dont think the scale will have reflected much of a difference (since I spent the first half of the month doing MASS building workouts... until I got properly EDUCATED)

But I think the tape will tell a different story. And at the end of the day, The mirror and tape are more important than the scale, for sure.

Its awesome to also see some of my friends, either inspired by me and my journey, or not; Join the gym and make commitments to change their lives in a more healthy way!

Shoutouts to Seth, Nicole and Brandon, and Stacey. Im glad you guys signed up at the Rush and I hope to see you in there sweating it out with me. All of you except Seth. Hope the new diet you're on and workout regime Im helping you with, get you physical growth and results that YOU want!

Anyways, yesterday was Back, and today was legs. Did pretty much the same things as last time. Except threw in a little "give 'em hell" on the cardio.

What was the most awesome, was Coach Matt was putting someone else through one of his workouts, and I just so happened to be on the Cybex machine next to them. I couldnt hear them, but during the excersing when I hit MAX SPEED and it started beeping, I could see his face in amusement, and he clapped. LMAO Talk about embarrassment! But the point was is that I was busting my ass on something he showed me, while he was showing someone else. They got to see what it looked like to take something you are taught, and owning it.

He had nothing but praise to give me afterwords. How he loved my attitude and dedication, and was taking in EVERYTHING I learned and using it. Feels good man.

Anyways, Tomorrow is my LAST workout day before Friday, Friday, when I gotta weigh in on Friday.

Wish me luck!

-Freeze

PS Feel free to refer others to this blog, I would love to MOTIVATE MORE PEOPLE!

Hell Week Shoulder day!

Mondays are my day off, and thus, I find myself being lazy. Today was different.

After I got up and going (while maintaining my diet), I cleaned the room, the bathroom, vaccumed, ect. Cooked my weeks worth of food today, ect.

And hit the gym.

Started with 8 minutes on the Cybex machine, getting sweaty and getting my heart rate up.

Then did

Inclined Bench: 25lbs for 3 sets, 40, 50, 30, strange, I know.

Regular Bench: 25lbs for 3 sets of 50, 40 , 40

On cables high to low, 10lbs 3 sets of 50

From low to high, 5lbs 3 sets of 50

Mid: 10lbs 3 sets of 50

Burnout presses on the press machine: 30lbs for 60 20lbs for 50.

Then got BACK on the Cybex machine and hit 14 minutes.

All in all, solid workout day for sure, cant wait for back day tomorrow, and more cardio! The 1st is just around the corner, and while I feel the weight might not have dropped much, if at all, I think my measurements WILL show an improvement.

Get stoked, get motivated, get excited.

And then, Get it DONE!

-Freeze

The Weekend.. followed by Hell Week!

Ok, so this past weekend was iffy, and Im really beating myself up about it as a whole.

Friday, I ended up working pretty late and didnt even get into the gym :/ Im allowed a rest day, so I just took it then.

Saturday I did get in for a 30-45 minute long Arm routine. Did my 4 different excersises for bicepts, and 4 more for tri's, But did minimal cardio.

Sunday I got in around 7 and did something a little different. As you have read, last sunday was Rush Hour, and it kicked my ass.

So I did my own 30 minute version today. Started with 6 minutes on the Cybex machine, then layed down with a 10 lb ball and did some ab work. Then stacked 4 high one of those stepping things and did some different work with that. Went down to the weight area and did some weighted crunches, left side, right side, and mid. Then went back up and did some more on the Step thing. Grabbed the half/ball balance things, did some squats on those, and ended with 7 more minutes on the Cybex machine. All in all it wasnt horrrrrible. But I could have done more.

Why did I title this partially "Hell Week".

Well April 1st is Friday, thats the day im weighing in and measuring. So this week leading up to it im going to be pushing myself harder, and farther, than before.

Im going to begin my workouts with 6-10 minutes on the cybex machine, THEN do my weights, then finish it off BACK on the cybex machine for 6-10 more minutes.

The good thing I noticed yesterday is my heart rate really never went back to rest after I got off of the Cybex machine and started doing other excersises, so Im hoping by "warming up" via my heavy cardio, that I can get more burn out of my weight routine, and hopefully, burn more FAT.

I guess we'll see on the 1st, when I measure in and see just what this past month has done for me.

Until next time

Freeze

Shoulders and Cardio!

Shoulder day is my hardest, and thus I do the lower weights, Some might say "well thats stupid" but trust me, if you are battling a constant battle of "is my shoulder going to dislocate again!?!?" like me, then you'll do it this way until you can really feel it strengthing up.

Anyways I started with

Seated Bench: 10lbs 3 sets of 50

Then lateral raises: 5 lbs 2 sets 50

I dont know what this next one is called. But you Hold the weights straight out in front of you by just bending your elbow, arms straight down, bend elbow until arms are at 90 degrees, then twist them outwards. Its something I learned in Rehab back when I first injured it. I did this 5lbs 2 sets of 50.

Then I got on the cables

over head wing span pull backs: 3lbs 3 sets of 30. I couldnt get past 30, my shoulder was BURNING and subluxing slightly.

Wing span raises: 3lbs 3 sets of 30. Same thing started happening.

Then I did Shrugs: 2 sets of 50, holding for 10 seconds after every 10 reps. 70lbs first time, 110 lbs second time.

Then I got on the Cybernex machine or w/e its called and did 20 minutes of Coach Matt's intervals. Michael Jackson's Black or White came on for my last minute of high speed high resistance, and I busted out max speed on that bad boy. hahaha It was awesome.

To those of you who are planning on joining the Rush, hit me up first. I want to make sure you talk to the best there. Nate will sign you up, and hook you up with the "Freeze's Friend Special" then I want you to meet Coach Matt. An ex gymnist, who graduated from Ohio State, and was going for the 1996 Olympics in Atlanta, when he broke his kneck during some fun practice time. He was unable to walk for 6 months, and ended up swelling up to around 270 lbs. Hes about 5'6. So you can imagine how BIG he was. When I am at his weight then, I will have lost 100 lbs. CRAZY!

Anyways, this guy is known as the King of Cardio, and the title belongs to no one else but him. I am guaranteeing to myself when I measure myself on the 1st that I will have lost some inches for sure. And maybe some lbs. Either way, now that he has shown me how to do TRUE cardio, I expect the weight to start falling off rapidly.

This is the guy you want for YOU. He pushes, pushes, pushes, and he does it in a way that really does make you push. He doesnt just say "there ya go, you can do another one buddy!" at least, not to me he didnt. Somehow, with only having talked to me about 30 minutes total, knew that I needed to be screamed at. Yelled at. Told I couldnt do it. Or at least, told that he didnt THINK I could do it. Like i said on my post for Sunday, I looked him square and said DONT tell me what i CANT do.

I hope that everyone of you can have the same mentality. DONT TELL ME WHAT I CANT DO.

Because when you go to DO IT. And you succeed. They will ALL have to eat their words! And thats a GOOD thing!

Yours in this Journey,

Freeze

Why Doing At Home workout videos is Stupid.

Alot of people ask this question, and I tend to agree.

We've all seen it, wether as an infomercial or through some other get results fast search on google. P90x, Brazilian Buns (i tried this, didnt like it enough. I felt like Beyonce after 6 weeks.... ok im kidding) and other "work from home without the high cost gym memberships" blah blah blah bullshit.

For example: p90x costs 139.99 for 90 days (3 months) That doesnt factor in, that for that workout DVD set you need to buy resistance bands or dumbells (resistance bands, the crappy ones, are 14.99 at walmart) and you need a pull up bar (one that can support 90% of the people who have seen the infomercial is gonna run close to 100) And they suggest a workout/yoga mat. Another 20 right there. Besides that, you have extra cost of electricity, and your house will smell like sweat. Add it up, thats 255 dollars JUST to get started. That doesnt include suppliments, a right diet, ect.

And lets be honest, is Tony Horton really going to Motivate you from a tv screen? You can rest any time you want, thus not getting the full workout it.

Honestly, lets just discuss the meaning of Insanity. One of my favorite questions to hear from my dear friend Mooch when we are discussing some things. What is the definition of Insanity? Well its doing the same thing over, and over again, expecting different results!

Let me ask you this, are you going to a gym everyday right now? I bet 90% of you say no. Ok. got it.

Now how many of you, when done with work, spend the rest of your time at home doing something OTHER than working out? Id say 75% of you say yes to this. Those that dont are musicians or Neighborhood Joggers.

Ok. So let me ask you this, how easy would it be to buy all this crap, dvds, ect, to workout at home, and then just set them in a closet until they collect dust and you craigslist it for 50 bucks? Exactly, extremely easy. Why?

Well you are still at home! You are remaining within your comfort zone. Its easy to continue browsing the internet or watching shows, its conveinent. You are already there, watching shows. You 9/10 times will go, oh, I have the dvds for p90x, i can do them anytime.

But you never do!

Part of the trick of becoming healthier, becoming better, and seeing results is to get OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE! Therefore, you have less excuses. How easy it to be at the gym, working out, and just stop to watch some tv for 30 minutes because General Hospital is on? Not very easy, honestly. They dont play that show, at least, I havent seen it when ive been there.

The point Im making, is Convienece is what makes humans unhealthy and gross. Is it easier to cook a meal, or go to a drive thru? Obviously the less healthy, MORE CONVIENT thing to do is go grab some Burger King. And thats a horrible decision.

Lets be honest, The Rush is like 35 dollars a month, max. For a single user. The diet I am currently on (and yes I realize its not for everyone) costs me 40 bucks a week. or 160 bucks a month. On my health I spend 195. Most of you, in a week, will spend close to that on soda and fast food, without ANY excersize. Dont believe me? Pull up your bank statement from last month and go through the eating out and fast food transactions and add it up. I bet it trumps, for the month, my number by 3 times. (There will be a FEW exceptions to this, but again, thats FEW)

So is going to the gym worth it? ONLY if you are serious. If you plan on continuing the same habits of eating, then yes, the extra 35 dollars would seem uneccessary. Then again, going to the gym while still eating like a pig would be pointless AND insane! (Doing the same thing in order to get different results)

Mooch said to me one time, and continues to say it, and I continue to pass it on because it means so much, he said "Remember this Freeze, Doing what you have always done will get you what you have always gotten"

And its true. Do you want to lose weight and get healthy? Do you really want to change your lifestyle. Well doing what you always do will heed NO RESULTS. And thats why so many people complain about workout videos, and at home ab machines and treadmills in their garage, all of which get little to NO use. You might feel better about yourself making the purchase, but in the end it is an expense that just makes no sense. You're NOT going to get results on it, because you continue to hold the same habits in other aspects of your life.

If right now you enjoy playing video games more than 2 hours a night, eat fast food at least 3 times a week, and watch at least an hour of TV a night, then you are doing it WRONG. And it doesnt matter how many ab crunches you do while dancing to Richard Simmons. You will not see ANY results. Period. This is scientifically proven. Its FACT.

So, if you are serious about doing something different. About really making a change, I implore you to sign up at a gym. Free advice and counseling is part of what you pay for (at least at the Rush I am at) and thus, you get way more for your money.

Im not saying come sign up where I work out (although if you are close to the Rush near me, ill be glad to put you in contact with someone who will take care of you, as a friend of mine), but Im saying go out and DO IT.

Only YOU can make the change, not Tim Horton. Not Richard Simmons. Not Shaun T. YOU.

So if you are ready to make the decision, or thinking about it. STOP

STOP thinking, and do. Make decisions, and do them. Great words of advice from my friend Mooch again. See, that guy does care!

Any questions, feel free to ask.

Your neighborhood friend

The Motivation

Just kidding im not on Jersey Shore, so

The Freeze.

The Motivation And Leg Day!

Today I got this message, I am going to keep it anonymous for sure (Please dont be mad, but I HAD to talk about it!)

"Hey, God its been forever. How are you? I cant believe its been as long as it has. Ive been reading your blog and keeping up with the facebook status'. I think your doing a great thing and you've really inspired me to work on myself. Ive gained alot of weight with both kids and Im ready to loss it but not really sure where to start. Can you help?"

Miss Anonymous, I surely can! See, as one becomes motivated to do something new, something different, something crazy, the world opens up to a whole new slew of things. For example, recently quite a few people I know are asking me for help, advice, and all sorts of things. I cant say I hate it!

Anonymous, my first thing of advice for you is to read my last blog where I outline the 5 principles posted on the wall at the Rush:

1) Motivation

2) Education

3) Determination

4) Vissualization

5) TRANSFORMATION.

These key principles have never meant more to me than recently, so I say start there. Ask yourself, "Am I motivated?" If so... why? Is it the fact that youve gained weight from having children? Is it because you want to be healthy? Is it because you want to fit in bikini size you havent been able to wear in years? It doesnt matter WHAT it is, as long as the motivation is there. It is the FIRST step and MOST important. Without it you will get no where.

What was mine? I have a few. I want to be smaller than I have been ever in my whole life. As you know, as well as everyone reading this, I have been big my ENTIRE life. I used to use excuses like: its genetics. BULL SHIT. The only reason I was as big as I was was because of ME! I did it to myself.

Remember this: It took (for me) 22 years to get myself to 370, its not gonna come off over night. Use that as a reminder to help you get through frustrating times, its helped me tremendously.

Other motivations: Health. Obviously. Being a smoker doesnt help, and I will quit that too. I have a daughter to live for. I want to be a grandad, and maybe a great grandad one day. I was blessed that ALL of my GREAT grandparents were alive most of my life, and when i was 2 I still had a GREAT GREAT grandma! My great grandma is STILL alive. in her 90s. Its in my family to live long, but I can never get there by being my old self. I had to change.,

ANother motivation is I want to be able to go to regular clothing stores and buy clothes. I dont want to go to specialty stores, Big And Tall sections, ect. The styles are sub par and selection is limited. I want to be able to dress HOWEVER I want. And shop WHEREever I want!

If you have these motviations, then you WILL succeed. You cant just do it because someone says you need to. Your doctor might say "you have higher risks for blah blah blah', but does that REALLY motivate you? 9/10 times the answer is NO.

I get told everyday I need to quit smoking. I will NEVER be able to quit unless I am MOTIVATED to do so. Unless I decide that I am going to do it. It is how I quit soda.

For you anonymous, I say start there. I quit soda, and sugary stuff and started drinking 64+ ounces of water a day, and saw 30 lbs drop without working out. I say that is the best way to begin, start in small steps. For me, I put down soda's one day and never picked them back up. No weining, no slowly coming off. I just said NO.

I hope this somehow motivates you to begin your journey. I say take pictures, make a blog, Ill follow you! Putting it out into the world is a HUGE motivator. Every day when I am at the gym I say to myself "if I dont give it my all, if I dont succeed, then I let down EVERY friend of mine on facebook, because they ALL know what I am doing"

And I push harder.

As far as normal readers: Today was leg day

Squats: 80 lbs 50 reps then 70 lbs 30 reps x 2. By the end i was exhausted

Leg curls: 30 lbs 2 sets of 50 After this my legs were jello

Hip ad/abductions 3 sets each of 20lbs 50 reps

Calf lifts 3 sets of 50 at 50lbs.

Then I got on the elliptical and did the excersise Coach Matt maid me do on Rush hour. And in 15 minutes I was sweaty and coughing and exhausted. In 15 minutes I had worked harder than 1 hour on the treadmill at high incline.

I do 1 minutes 60 -80 watts on resistance 20, then go 1 minutes 190+ watts at resistance 40.

Have a good one everyone!

Freeze

Monday Funday = Chest Day

Whats up faithful followers? I hope your day was splending, I definitely enjoyed my day off!

The toughest thing about being off today was keeping to my eating schedule, but I was still able to do so, and have just one more meal for the day coming up at 9:00PM.

Either way today was chest day, and we all love chest day

I had to start with cables today because the benches were all taken (pretty busy in there, it was strange for sure.)

Anyways my workout:

On Cables pulling down: 5lb 3 sets of 50

On cables pulling up: 5lb 3 sets of 50

On cables pulling mid: 5lb 3 sets of 50.

Inclined Bench: 20lbs 3 sets of 50

Regular Bench: 25lbs 3 sets, 50,40,35.

They got pretty tough towards the end. But Nate told me as long as I was doing over 30 a set, I was good to go. And that my goal is to get to where im doing 50 reps then move up in weight. So I will be raising my cables all to 10lbs next week (although with my shoulder being the way it is, it does worry me some to increase TOO much) and raising inclines to 25. Ill keep regular where it is, but I have a feeling next week ill do all sets of 50 (because normally bench comes first in my workout, then cables. So by the time I got to it I was already pretty spent)

Anyways, other than that, still feeling great, still working hard, still being motivated. And hopefully, still motivating! And that was proof in today I was asked by a female friend of mine on how they can eat better to lose weight. So we are going to sit down and go over her diet, and then work around it, and figure out how best to modify it.

The best thing about all of this is that I am learning portion control. Im learning ratios (i.e. 40%Protein,30%carb,30%fat) and how to switch those up to do different things to your body. Im learning what TRUE healthy eating is, and what isnt. Im becoming educated.

Everytime Im leaving the rush I look up at the wall as you walk out, where it says the steps to being successful.

Motivation

Education

Vissualization

Determination

TRANSFORMATION.

First I got myself motivated just by being me! And by decided it was time to really make a change in my life. Then over the course of a month, I got Educated. What to eat, when to eat, how to workout, when to workout, what to do, ect. Now Im vissualizing what I want to look like, how I want to feel, what I want to appear as. And now im BURNING with a Determination that cant be quenched by ANYTHING. I do NO extracurriculars, no fun activities, NOTHING until I have worked out for the day. Period. I cannot, and will not be deterred. That being said, and with the first 4 steps being emplimented, I WILL see a Transformation. There is no other concesiquence at all. By what I am doing, I will see results, plain and simple.

And that gets me MORE excited! I cant wait to be on the scale August 1st, 2011; and be 270 or lower. I cant wait to sit back and say, I, Freeze, have lost 100 pounds in 1 year.

And that day cant come any sooner!

Until next time

-Freeze

Friday and today.

Friday was arm day, which is pretty easy to do for any beginner. I do 8 different work outs, 4 bicept, 4 tricept, and i alternate. You can basically pic any workouts you know for these and do them, but what ive found for the most work is to do 4 diff ones for each, still using small weight, high reps ( in my case for losing weight.) Of course, if you are trying to bulk up, use the 5+5 method that I outlined in another post, as from people ive seen, this gives them the biggest growth.

Saturday I took a rest day, because I knew I was going into a hellacious workout today, Sunday. And boy did I.

Today I did a Rush Hour with Coach Matt (let me tell you guys, this man is awesome). Hes about 5'6 and used to weigh 270, and now hes definitely fit for sure. And boy did he kick my ass.

First off, when I discussed doing the Rush Hour with him today (we talked Thursday) he straight up told me he didnt think I had it in me. That he didnt think I could do it, because of my weight ect. And I looked him in the eyes and said "Dont tell me what I cannot do". So he told me that if I quit on him twice during the hour, he would send me home. I agreed, shook hands, and signed got put on the schedule for 12 today.

He told me yesterday we had to reschedule to 5, and I was ok with that. So we did.

Anyways long story short. It was intense as hell, probably the most intense cardio workout I have ever done (yes, even more intense than anything in football, ever.) The workout he put me through is specifically designed to shock your body and increase metabolism, for hours after the workout. As I type this I am starving (my eat schedule says my dinner is at 9... im definitely counting down the minutes lol)

So I finished the workout, within 5 minutes I was in the bathroom, puking. That was also a first for me. Never have I ever puked from working out. But it happened today, and I was ok with it. I was exhausted, ready to fall asleep. 15 minutes later I began sipping on my protein shake. Normally I just chug them, but my stomach was still turning, so sipping was definitely better.

All in all, I can say that I am happy I did it, it has opened my eyes to a whole new way to do cardio, and I will probably (if I can afford it) sign up with matt as a trainer, and do it more. I am guessing for my size, it would be wise to try to do such a workout 2-3 times a week. We will see how it all plays out.

Its 8:50... and im ready for dinner!

Thursday Shoulder Day. Happy ST pattys

The new diet is going really well. I set alarms on my phone so that I would not forget when to eat. I was surprised that I was able to get to each meal without getting tooooo hungry. Then again, when you drink as much water as I do, its probably easier :p

Got the new Protein shake mix today too. Its called Nectar, and its 0 sugar 0 fat 26g protein shake, decently tasting for sure. White powder, but to my surprise, turned blue when I mixed it with the water. Like the old color changing Kool Aid from back in the day!

Today:

Sitting straight up bench: 10 lbs for 50 reps x3

Front arm raise/twists: 5 lbs for 30 reps x3

Fly raises: 5 lbs for 30 reps x 1

On Cables Pull backs: 3lbs for 50reps 3x

On Cables Pull up wing span: 3lbs got 30 reps x3

Then I did 30 min on the treadmill, usual stuff interval 2.4 at 7 incline, 3.0mph at 2.0 incline.

I know your probably thinking "wow, those weights are REALLY low".. and you're right. I have a dislocating shoulder (left) that I am trying to make sure I rehab correctly, and trust me, even doing 3 lbs on the cables breaks me into sweat and i have to fight for the last 10 or more. And it of course KILLS my left shoulder. Very painful, but I know that with repitition and hard work, it will eventually be strong enough to do more things. I havent dislocated it since 2006 (though ive done it about 10 times in all) and never rehabbed after the last one.

So yes, shoulder day will seem like a much lower workout, but in actuallity, its the hardest for me.

Anyways... Got to hop in the shower and get moving.

Later!

-Freeze

My pictures of my week worth of food!

This is what 1 week of pre-portioned food looks like. 1/4 a cup of rice is definitely as small as it sounds!

Please, if you have any questions, comments, concerns, feel free to ask! I want to be a motivation to others, while being motivated by others! Pick my brain as I have picked others, and let me help you succeed, with me!

And I forgot to mention the supplements I have been taking.

I take 2 capsules of D4 in the morning with my water ( although Im going to stop. they are thermagenics, and not really working)

Then pre workout, 2 scoops of Jack3d (although I think im going to switch it up when this supply finishes) and Post workout Protein, 1 serving of GNC Amplified blah blah blah (60g of protein, i have discovered, is too much for your body to metabolize in one serving, and therefore, this crap is actually COUNTERproductive, so I am coming off of it TOMORROW. My buddy Nate is picking me up some new protein shake suppliments, when I get it tomorrow I will post what it is, since I do not presently know exactly. lol)

And Here we go!

So here we are. Its March 16th, and I just had my roomate Matt take these photos. Now, the scale does show me at 326, although if you compare these photos to the others, the "befores", then in my mind, its hard to see a difference, Maybe you will be able to see what I cant see.

Either way, Im posting my measurements as of March 1st below, and weight (which unfortunately hasnt changed at all.) Then, what my new diet is starting tomorrow.

And as a side note: Im doing all of this legally. No illegal substances or anything. I do take some Pre and Post workout stuff, and ill say that below as well. In my measurements, black will be actual, red will be goal to hit by April 1st.

March 1st Measurements:

Weight: 327.2lbs 315

Left Bicep: 15.75inch 15

Right Bicep: 16 inches 15

L Bicep Flexed: 17 18

R Bicep Flexed: 17 18

L Thigh: 28.5 27

R Thigh: 28.4 27

L Calf: 17.75 17

R Calf: 18.5 18

Neck: 19.25 19

Chest: 51.75 50

Waist around belly button: 56 52

Waist where I wear pants: 48 44

When I made these goals on March 1st, I was going to be doing heavy strength lifting alongside of my cardio. After having talked to my friends who all are bodybuilders, we decided a better approach for weight loss would be higher reps at lower weight. And I just started this on Monday, March 14th, 2011. The few weeks I was in the gym before this date, I was doing bodybuilding and strength regimens, and walking to and from the gym, or other lighter cardio.

As of monday im doing something different. Here is my schedule:

Monday: Chest

Tuesday: Back

Weds: Legs

Thurs: Shoulders

Fri: Arms

Sat: Core

Sun: Rest ( still doing cardio)

each of these days is accompanied by cardio of course. So what I actually did so far was:

Monday: Incline bench w/ Dumbells 15lbs 50 reps x 3

Regular Bench w/dumbells 20 lbs 50 reps x3

On the cables High to low: 5 lbs 50 reps 4x

On the cables Low to High: 5 lbs 50 reps 3x

On the cables Middle: 5 lbs 50 reps 4x

And this chest workout is amazing, i was doing what we call 5+5's ( Each set increases reps and weight by 5. Example: 1st set 10lbs 10 reps, 2nd set 15lbs 15reps, ect.. to a minimum of 25 reps (or 4 sets) with the option to go to a 5th set(for 30 reps) if the 25 reps where completed. I stopped this style this Monday, because for building good mass quick, it IS amazing, and if you want to build mass, I will show you the 6 day workout at the gym anytime you want)

On Monday I also did 45 minutes on the treadmill, intervals of 2.4mph at 7 incline, and 2.8mph at 4

Tuesday: Back day

Seated Lat Pull downs (outer grip) 55lbs for 50reps x 3

Seated Lat pull downs (inner grip) 55lbs for 50 reps x3

Seated Rows: 40lbs for 50 reps x3

I dont know what to call the next 2, but its inner and outer grip style, single arm or double arm machine that you sit down facing the weight and pull towards you, like a row, but different. Either way i had 25lbs on each arm, did both inner and outer 3x for 50 reps.

So thats a total of 600 reps. This is what I need to be doing to build lean muscle and burn fat!

I then did an hour on the treadmill. intervals. 3.0mph at 2 incline, and 2.4mph at 7 incline. (Thanks Meredith for staying on with me! Def made everything go by quicker!)

And last but not least

Weds: Legs

Leg press: 135lbs 50reps x3

Leg Curls: 30 lbs 50 reps x3

Hip Abduction: 30 lbs 50 reps x3

Hip Adduction: 30 lbs 50 reps x 3

Thats ALL i did today, i know it wasnt the best, i didnt even get to squats, but when I was done, I sat down with Nate, the go to nutritionist and trainer, and had an extensive talk about my workouts and diet. And we went through what I have been eating, and we changed the hell out of it.

So here is my diet, starting tomorrow:

9 AM: Breakfast essentials (1 serving) made with water, not milk, and a banana if I want.

11 AM: 1/2 wrap ( my total wrap is 4oz turkey, 1 oz cheese, little brown mustard, on green, veggie made wrap. I make the total thing, and then cut it in half)

1PM: 4oz chicken breast( or a packet of tuna, plain) 1/4 serving of rice (which happens to be 1/4 cup) 1serving of mixed veggies (in this case, 2/3 of a cup)

3Pm: Other 1/2 of wrap

7PM: Post workout protein shake

9PM: 4oz of lean (94/6) beef, 1/4 serving rice, 1 serving veggies

and if I get hungry before bed, 1 spoon (not heaping) of peanut butter.

All of this while drinking 64-128 ounces of water a day. I have premade all of this food for this week already, so it will be easy to put it in my lunch box and go.

Let me know what you think! I will post pictures of the food in like 30 seconds.

Starting tomorrow: I will post everyday with my workout. And then 1st of the month i will do weight and measurements and pictures. And I WILL let you know if I somehow cheat on my diet (although, pre-portioning seems to me to be an easy way to keep from doing so)

Thank you again for your Support!

-Freeze

Update: Read

Well, Obviously my goal orignally was to lose 100 pounds in 2010. Unfortunately I didnt get to start until August 1, 2010.

So the 365 day goal is still in affect, but its from August 1, 2010 until July 31st, 2011. This pictures to the left are "before" shots taken right after I got on the scale on August 1, 2010.

On August 1, 2010 I weighed a wopping 370lbs! I couldnt believe the size I had grown to until that day when I stepped on the scale for the first time.... I was literally the biggest I had ever been. The most unhealthy, ect. The wierdest part about the entire thing was I kept hearing "You dont look like you weigh that much" and blah blah blah. People can be really nice sometimes, and for that, I thank you. But the truth is, at 22 years old, I realized I was on the fast track to death.

I tried to justify the entire thing by saying "Well, all of my family is big, so its natural for me" When the truth was, it wasnt. Its never natural for a person to be THAT obese. (We are talking a BMI of 50+) Not only that, But I am also a smoker. (I plan to quit, I will outline this in the next post) Which made me EVEN more likely to get some sort of heart disease, or some other life-ending complication. This was also a month after my daughter's 1 year birthdate. I decided it was time to REALLY change. Or at least, I thought so.

The next day, I quit soda completely. I started drinking water, eating a little better, occassionally some fast food. Playing basketball at the gym almost everyday was all the cardio I got... And by October 1st, I was down to between 320-330. 40-50 pounds lost. I was extatic!

However, I allowed myself to be blown off course by stupid excuses. Too busy at work, too much money, ect ect. Either way, I found myself eating fast food again, every night. No time in the gym. However, I never picked back up sodas. And for that, im glad. I went the whole winter without doing an ounce of cardio, without eating right. I got on the scale again Feb 27th, 2011. Scared to death of what I would see.... and I saw 330lbs.

I couldnt believe it. Through eating fast food, and being unhealthy for a few months, I had managed to somehow not gain any weight back. Leaving my Gross loss at 40lbs.

But then I got to thinking, and realized that I wasnt giving up. I was going to REALLY do it this time.

Now I know what your thinking, and yes, for the 23 years of my life, probably twice a year, I would say the same thing. Im REALLY going to change. Im REALLY going to finally do it. And year after year, I failed.

But this time is real. Im telling you in this blog. Im updating my 4square with check ins, im keeping people in the loop, to keep me accountable. Im going to be posting pictures the 1st of every month along with measurements. Im going for the GOLD. And I am succeeding and will succeed.

Thank you for reading, and subscribing to this blog. I hope that each and everyone of you as my friends, family, or someone I dont know, takes the time to read this. To keep up with me. To keep me accountable. The more people that are following this Journey that I am on, the more people who know, the more likely I will succeed!

And this will conclude my intro, intro post. I will be posting my March 1st stats and my new diet that i am starting TOMORROW, because the diet ive been on just isnt working.

Thanks a ton

Freeze